Friday, August 31, 2012

ditto to Kristina's TGIF

I'm so tired and am going to take a nap... or at least try to.

I was thrown off today b/c I didn't have any more jelly so I couldn't have a muffin for breakfast. Had a string cheese & 1 non orgasmic donut at school, Sibley's for lunch (with mac n cheese and a side of mac n cheese), and lots of water when I got home. I've been parched.

Ok, nap time for Chimi and me.

<3

TGIF

Dear god i'm glad it's friday!!  This week has been a shit show with trying to get any kind of work done to get ready for the kids next week. 

As mentioned in yesterday's blog, i was EXTREMELY exhausted.  I also had the worst sciatica pain i've ever experienced...i literally had to drag my leg b/c it hurt so bad to move it.  I've typically had ongoing siatica bull shit, but nothing that i couldn't work through.  Last night's was BAAAAD.   The pain was sharp and traveled all the way down to my foot, making it numb.  Anywho...i said fuck it and went to bed to sleep it off.  I'm thinking the pain occured due to all of my walking around -- shows how out of shape I am.  I'll be so glad when I get move again.

So far my food intake has been okay today.  Frosted mini wheats for breakfast, salad and fries for lunch, and teddy grahams for a snack.  However, coming back from lunch i'm still hungry :-/   I may have to have some popcorn later today. 

Will make this goal my bitch

I am so determined right now, I'm motivated, I'm angry at myself for letting myself get this bad out of shape, and I'm going to make this goal my complete and total bitch. Mark my words. 

Yesterday, I pitstopped at Whole Foods Market and Trader Joes to see what I could find from there that was Gluten free for Josh...he's been working really hard at it lately and he actually has not had the usual cramping he gets with regular food, so maybe he really does have a Gluten Allergy..which I found last night, was going to be really expensive. 

FIND: I found the BEST olives at whole foods, and bought some greek cheese, YOLO bitches. 

When I got home Josh was on the front porch...and I quote, 
"In the words of Celeo Green...being in love with your ass ain't cheap"

$6.00 Cereal Bars and $5.50 pasta

STUPID. But whatcha going to do, it's not anyone's fault...so we'll make the best of it, and I'm sure Josh hates eating this crap as much as I hate buying it...because gluten free beer, is foul. 

I put away the groceries, went upstairs and changed. 

EFF Chet. I can do this, don't challenge me - cause I'll destroy you and your challenge. 

I ran. I ran ALMOST the whole thing that I couldn't run yesterday...just walked a little at the beginning as a warm up.  Chet wasn't outside, he was inside eating dinner....with Chris and his girlfriend, and Ginny...so what did I do...I ran straight back home, to his driveway, up to his front door, rang that bitch...he comes to the door, I say..."Ran...just wanted you to know" - and I walked away. 

SUCK IT SUCK IT SUCK IT

Came home and fixed an awesome dinner for me and Josh...he had chicken alfredo with gluten free pasta...I had alfredo with sauteed zuchinni and regular pasta...

...I ate a couple olives, yum. 

...and I ate a fruit chiller...

I got about half of the invites done. 

I'll do the rest today after work. 

My legs are sore, from a 1/2 mile...I'm a fat ass weak mother fucker. This will change. Challenge Accepted Chet.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

no orgasmic donuts

breakfast- I'm now on "the usual" status with those muffins.
lunch- the deli (I'm with Kristina and ate way more pickles than normal. I was freaking starving). Ate 97% of my sandwich on wheat and split french fries with ketchup with Justin
dinner- 2 string cheeses & a 200 calorie microwavable meal, so about 350 calories total.

I saved my calories from dinner b/c all I wanted were those fucking delicious ass donuts from the amish people at the beer & food truck thing. Honestly, I was in the middle of texting Erin I didn't want to go b/c I felt like a freaking zombie today; however, in the middle of doing that, she texted me saying she was ready whenever. bum. So, we get down there.... no donuts. Those fucking amish bitches. I was even passing up beer for the night for these. Well, bump that. I got 1 beer. Then I started getting hungry, so after eying every taco cart, I finally picked one. It was the biggest waste of $6. My 2 tacos fell apart and were barely filled. So, on the positive side, I didn't really eat much of them. lol

After eating those tacos, I'm feeling very bloated, like I got a food baby. I need to get outside this weekend and walk b/c I'm feeling that those 2 calories I lost are coming back, and I'd love to be able to say in the first month I lost 7 pounds!

I need to start getting some fruit or something light to eat after school before practice, so I don't go home and binge.

<3 fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I've never been so happy to see a Friday!

holy exhausted batman

Jeezus i'm fucking tired tonight.

breakfast - frosted mini wheats
lunch - Central park deli (aka shit tons of pickles)
Dinner - grilled cheese
Snacks - grapes, cheese-its, and teddy grahams.


 <---what i did during my dinner.

Mid Week (Unofficial) Weigh-In

Weighed in today at 166.2 

Too excited not to post it even though it's not official.....

Unofficially have 2.2 lbs left to go! 

EFF My Neighbor & My life

My day sucked, sucked, sucked, sucked. 

It started after work....with returning my jeans that did NOT fit, even though I had lost weight. WTF. 

So I went to Express, tried on about every pair of pants in the store...found some, then realized their sale was over and I couldn't get them for the same price. So I just returned what I had and left for two reasons: 

1) They were a size up, and I refused to pay full price for a size up. 
2) I didn't love them enough to spend $120 dollars on them.

Then I walked out of express, with some money, thinking okay - this isn't so bad, I didn't NEED jeans - and I just got my money back. 

Then I thought...wait, yeah I do need jeans...cause mine are uncomfortable...and my ass doesn't stay in them when I sit down...which sucks....

So, I walked down the aisle in Short Pump to American Eagle, I haven't tried their jeans on for years....but they were ALL marked down to $30. So I said "Fuck it" 

I went in, tried on probably 20 pairs of jeans and then decided to buy some, but HERE is what I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. 

Officially...I'm down 4lbs, however, I need to buy a size up! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? That math doesn't even make sense. 

I was so mad, but I figured a bigger number size looked better than the muffin top on my old jeans. So I bought 3 pairs in different cuts. In an effort to not have a stroke when I visit my closet, I'm getting rid of the smaller # size jeans. FML. 


I was so upset, all I wanted to do was eat a big mac. 

I didn't.  I went home.  To work on invitations, and forget about my horrible jeans trying on experience, I mean I was sweating in the waiting room trying those on, talk about out of shape. 

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. 

Then, it gets better. 

I get home, and go check my mail...AND...Chet is outside. He asks me what I'm doing? I said "Nothing, getting ready to go decompress and sit on my ass, why?" 

His response: "Are you still dieting?" 
Me: "Yup, I've lost 4lbs, slow and steady wins the race."
Him: "You'd lose weight if you started running, how old are you?" 
Me: "Old. Twenty-Eight." 
Him: "When I was your age I was running all around a neighborhood like this. I remember, I weighed myself and I was 250lbs, and I wasn't okay with it, so little by little I started running, I'd run/walk, and go further each day, and run a bit more than walking each day..and before I knew it I was running 3 miles a day straight, only took about a month, and in that time I got down to 170lbs. You could do that too." 
Me: "Running is for rich people"
Him: "You have a lot of excuses. Instead of going in the house and sitting on the sofa, you should go change and put your shorts and sneakers on and go for a run. It would take 15 minutes and you could go shower and have the rest of your afternoon." 
Me: "I have invitations to work on"
Him: "Bullshit, I don't care, this is your health, put yourself first." 
Me: "Ahh dammit" [I start walking away]
Him: "Wait! Get back here, I'm serious, go do it"
Me: "No, thanks!"
Him: "Seriously, if you listened to me you could probably drop another size in a month." 
Me: [Thinking, that'd be helpful considering I just bought a size up in jeans] "Ughhhh, fine." 
Him: "Okay, go!"

[I go into the house, put away the mail, pet Karma, thinking to myself, that guy is a turd....but he's right. So I go upstairs and change...15 minutes, I can do this.]

Josh comes home, "what are you doing?" 
Me: "Asshole Chet is making me run." 
Josh: "oh, have fun." 
Me: "Do you have headphones I can borrow, I left mine at work." 
Josh: "Tons"

Get's headphones hands them to me, I go outside. Chet is still there...watching me. 
He comes over. 

Him: "Okay, here is ALL I want you to do today, don't burn out...I want you to walk quickly, from here to the top of the hill, then run down, when you get to the stop sign I want you to walk to the car path across the street and go to the other street. When you reach the other sidewalk, turn around and run all the way back to the top of the hill....then when you get to the top, walk quickly, back to the house. Not even 10 minutes...and tomorrow we'll do the same route, but you'll run more. It's about a 1/2 mile. Once you can run that, we'll start run/walking a mile. We'll do this everyday for the month of September, rain or shine....and by October, you'll be running a whole mile or even more...and you'll feel great." 

Me: "UGHHHHHH" 

So I go, and I do it, and I am so out of shape it is SHAMEFUL. 

I come back...

Him: "Okay, go stretch and shower, see you tomorrow"

Me: "Aye Aye Captain [Mumbles "asshole" winded and under my breath]

I go inside, Josh is trying to find Gluten free beer to try for his new possible Gluten Allergy, I lay on the floor in the living room, trying not to die...

Decide, while I'm there I'll do 20 crunches...then another 20 crunches. 

Josh decides to go to Total Wine. I decide to go along so we can get dinner. 

We go, come home and decide to try Glory Days Gluten Free Menu - since we eat there alot we thought we'd try to find some options for when we go with you guys. 

I had a house salad, and 8 boneless wings and some celery. 

Got home, showered, ate a fruit chiller, and LITERALLY passed out within minutes on the sofa. 

I hate Chet. I am sore. I ran 0.2 miles...WTF.
#Fat Girl Problems. 

Weighed In this morning: 166.2 (I hate that Chet is right). 

Guess I gotta run everyday for the month of September, it's only a month Fuck it - Let's see what I got. 

I decided that if I was on the Hunger Games, I'd die in the first 10 minutes of the movie. 




Wednesday, August 29, 2012

creative title goes here

I ate a full box of mac n cheese for dinner... by myself! LOL. And I didn't feel bad about that, until it killed my stomach and I'll just stop right there.

I was just a poopy mess today and hope we can do the pool on Friday, so we can catch up! Idk what my problem was today. I was just in a funk today. I just need to get out of this week and the next week, so I can enjoy my birthday weekend, and then Kristina & I can organize the club fair! oh, hooray.

I think being back in school is def helping out what I eat... well, except for dinner tonight. I think that came on as a part of me being an emotional eater. Not an excuse, but I just wanted to go to town on that mac.

I'm up way later than I should be, considering I need to be somewhat presentable for parents tomorrow.

<3

Mama said knock you out...

 
 breakfast - grapes
snacks - cheese-its
lunch - dino nuggs at a mexican place
dinner - ginormo salad at vinnys

Feelings
  I'm actually beginning to feel less overwhelmed.  Adam and I have been busting our asses with our house.  The house is an absolute disaster b/c we have rooms torn apart.  It seriously looks like bombs went off in every aspect of my home.  This past weekend we moved the guest room upstairs and tore down the man room.  I felt so bad for adam -- he took apart his futon, his poker table, and fishing shit.  He didn't seem too sad about it.   After we emptied the man room (green room), i scrubed it to death!  Then Adam went to work on the guest room (drunk tank downstaris).  He broke down the bed, furniture, and rolled up our big ass rug in there.  He managed to move all of that shit, by himself, upstairs into the new and improved drunk tank.  He never complained and we didn't fight!!  Talk about a success!

The baby's room is just about emptied.  I need to scrub the shit out of it, we need to buy and rug, and then set up the baby's furniture. 

The office is going to be the semi-man room.  It's going to have a couch and TV in it for our long nights up w/ the baby.  Adam needs to get his pile of stuff out of the office and into the shed, and then the office is cone.

Everynight adam and I get home from work and chip away at the house to prep for the little human we are about to have.  It's so crazy about the preparation that goes on for something that weight less than 10lbs.  My emotions have been a rollercoaster (probably due to hormones).  One minute i'm excited, another i'm sappy, and then another i'm like WTF????  

In a nutshell, adam and I have been working very hard.  And the even better part of the whole thing is thad Adam has actually been making great progress!!  We all know how adam can get when it comes to projects (need I remind you of my kitchen and deck).  This weekend, i'm hoping that we have time to finish the big move w/ the furniture.  Of course, it all depends on adam's schedule.

Okay, i've officially blogged the boring shit outta ya both! 

Love you both -- pool VERY SOON!!  I need some relaxation and a fucking tan!
 
 
 
 My sexy ride! :)
Photo

bleh bleh bleh

Muffin for breakfast, obviously.
Pietros for lunch consisting of an italian sub & some french fries, that weren't too impressive.

Chimi and I just got back from a 20 minute walk. Not really a lot of cardio, but at least we were getting something in.

I need to vent about my day. Our professional dev. day was the biggest fucking joke. We were told this year that we would not have benchmarks. Yay! Oh, but why is that? B/c we spent the day retyping (YES, fucking retyping) passages from history & science books and creating benchmarks about non fiction passages in a very specific order. Are you kidding me? I wasted 2 hours of my time creating a benchmark when I have orientation tomorrow all for you to copy & paste this shit? I was livid. I usually know who I cant vent to and try to keep everything kept to myself, but today I lost it and Brenda knew it. We told my mentee to leave so he could actually use the time to do work. Then, we talked to Amanda, and she said we could leave after lunch to go to our room, thank goodness. So, I spent the next 2 hours in Scott's room trying to help him clean and organize and prepare and blah blah blah.

Hmmm, what to make for dinnnnner? I don't know. I'm so poopy over this whole fucking day.

Hope you guys have had a much better day! I can't wait to see Big Blue's replacement! lol

Me....Totally Me. (AND Kristina)


KARA!!!!!

PUG CUPCAKES - Look on Pinterest.

I know this isn't the place to post cupcake photos since we are all trying to be skinny, but are you KIDDING ME?! These were made for you and chimi!


Does Anyone?

Want to pool afterwork today - this is our last week. 

professional development

I'm sitting in meadowbrook high school listening to a professional development -- BORED.  Today i have my glucose test; hopefully i don't have diabetes!

Good news :  slept all night the past two nights and adam and I bought a new truck.  And I must say, it's a sexy truck :)

Bad news:  still gaining weight :(

Food:  so far, i've eaten some grapes and cheese-its while sitting in my in-service.  I'm so looking forward to lunch.  Imagine that, preggo is hungry.

Hopefully you two are enjoying your Wednesday.

Bloat....

I AM SO BLOATED. The food of my people = not good for two meals in one day....

I have my standard lunch today, cantaloupe, yogurt, english muffin, sandwich.....however, I feel like eating none of it because I'm so bloated I look like the muffin top woman! 

SO GROSS. 

I sometimes strongly dislike being a female, I feel like men don't bloat, that pisses me off.


Tuesday's Dinner

Well, after my Mexico fail for lunch, it was taco tuesday....it's a good thing I like the food of my people because I ate nothing but it yesterday. 

We had taco tuesday...which wasn't so bad because we only had 4 taco shells, so two tacos each. 

I added Fat Free Refried beans to mine for some extra protein and fiber...and ate some cheese dip and chips (but not much)

After dinner I ate a frozen fruit chiller thing....that was it.

Then I went to work on Kristina's invites so Mama Buck can get them mailed out.

Not exercise, but I wasn't sitting on the sofa sleeping, so I consider it a plus. 


Tuesday, August 28, 2012

long mofo day

Man, it felt great to sleep 8 1/2 hours last night. I was exhausted and out before 10.

Breakfast- if you guessed an English muffin, then you are correct
lunch- 2 pieces of pizza. I didn't give a poop. it was delicious.
dinner- I just ate Subway & had a cupcake at our game.

On the bright side, my girls won their scrimmage 2-1; I'm so pumped! I also weighed myself this morning and was down 2 pounds, so I'm trying to keep the momentum going and actually believe I went down 2 pounds, but I won't hold my breath on it. I planned on making dinner tonight. I got these hot dog sausage things that are pretty low in calories, & I have that ground turkey I want to eat. But, I was gone all day. School from 7:15 until 1, home to let Chimi out, and then was back at school by 2:15 and got back to the parking lot a little after 7:30. I'm not used to these long days in the fall with coaching. Ok, shower time and bed.

Hope you guys had a good Tuesday. Tomorrow is hump day :)

Jeans

My new jeans that I'm SUPER excited about are getting delivered today.....

...if they don't fit...I will cry and you'll be able to hear me scream from my house in C'field. 

Wish me luck....


A funny funny story...

This is hilarious!
http://hahasforhoohas.com/the-fart-that-almost-altered-my-destiny/





Since we are all MJ fans :)

Aaaaannnnddd....i'm so happy to have rita back on the wagon w/ us!! :)


thriller - motivational poster

Tuesday 8/28

So far today has been a complete fail. 

Breakfast: Coffee, with 2 splenda and 2% milk 
Mid-Morning: Coffee, with 2 splenda and Cinnamon Vanilla Creamer
Lunch: Mexico - Burrito Loco (Veggie Burrito, covered in cheese) with Sour Cream and Guac and Rice, and chips and salsa. 

It's only 2:07, pretty sure I've eaten my caloric intake for the day. 

Dear Diary

Forgive me, I am back now.

Also - this image killed me....


Official Weigh In

Official Weigh In (from yesterday): 

Current Weight: 167.2 lbs
Change to Date: (-3.4 lbs)
Weight till Goal: (6.6 lbs)

Days till Goal: 54 

Thoughts and Feelings: "Slow and Steady, wins the race, but it is bullshit."

Goal from last week: Minimum 3 days of exercise 
Status - Um, Kinda? I did two hours of yard work on Tuesday and Wednesday, with a lot of gusto cause I was just plain hating life...So that's 4 hours of "exercise" which is more than 3 days of 30 minutes so I guess that counts. Wait............yeah, it counts. 

Revised Status: GOAL COMPLETE

Goal for this week: Minimum 4 days exercise (30 minutes or more) - I have to get to 5 days a week per my asshole doctor...so let's get busy! 

Food last week - I ate poorly, some days I didn't eat, when I did eat it was bad...I think the only reason I lost was because of the stress....I feel better this week, ALOT better, so hopefully, I can eat normally and get my shit together...cause being not hungry is awesome for a diet, but it makes you feel like POOP. 


Monday, August 27, 2012

snacking away....

I did really well all day until I got home from field hockey. At that point I had such a headache (probably from the burning smell of my classroom, the 2 hours in the sun & my new sunburn, and not eating much), that I came home and had my 2nd salad for the day b/c I was so tired and didn't want to cook. But after that, it was just snack after snack.... string cheese, pop corn, 100 calorie cookies, icecream. At least the snacking was under 400 calories, LOL. I just wanted one thing after another. I'm trying to drink plenty of water to stop me from eating.

Happy Monday, ladies! <3

my weigh in

229.8 - yikes - and gaining!

I'm downright exhausted after today! 

Kara may be right about the eating out this week - we are going to have to watch that.

Ri Ri, hope the doc. appointments went well today!

official weigh in

226.6

I think I stayed the same, or went up .2
I will take it, considering how poorly I ate this weekend. If I wouldn't have eaten a full pizza by myself or walked more, that number could have been lower.

Goal- lose 1 pound this week, so that means more walking & hopefully being on a schedule will help. Or it means we go out to lunch every day and I screw up, lol.

Ok, time for work. Pug Life represent!

<3

Sunday, August 26, 2012

trying to redeem myself

Perf! 



I ended up not eating anything for lunch just because I was so full from all that pizza. I did have a diet soda and some deli turkey, lol. I had a delicious chicken caesar salad for dinner and packed it up for my lunch tomorrow. Since I went grocery shopping, I picked up one of those salad kids already and I had that chicken defrosting... and baaaaam!

That's it. Time to get myself into school mode now. OYE


this shirt explains my life, not even joking.

sunday blues

Like Kristina said, this week is going to be a wash for us... Rita, I hope you are doing better and can make us look good! lol

After finishing the rest of my pizza this morning (I know, moo, right), Chimi and I went on a walk, so it was a nice 35 minute walk around the neighborhood. It takes us 10 minutes to walk to Candy's... oh, lord. I'm not even thinking about lunch right now. 50 pieces of pizza was enough to fill me up and depress me into never wanting to eat again. I did pull out some chicken breasts, so maybe I'll have chicken and corn for dinner or something.

I just love food. It is so dang good.


4:30 am...

So i've been up since 1:00 am and it's currently 4:37 am.  This not sleeping thing is about to become a serious problem next week.  So far, i've been okay w/ it b/c i didn't have to work...but not being able to nap from 7:00am until 10 am is going to kick my ass.  Watch out for the angry preggo at work, Kara!

Eating-- as I mentioned in an earlier blog, i haven't been conscience of what i've been doing for the past week.  At this point, falling off the wagon is an understatement for me.  As a matter of fact, i'm currently polishing off my american cheese as I type this.  (ALWAYS FUCKING HUNGRY)  Monday's weigh in is going to be horrendous, I will be pissed w/ myself, and my doc. may even say something to me about my weight.  Oye.  On the flipside, i will regain somewhat of a schedule next week.

Hopefully you two ladies are handling things much better than me. 

Here's my photo journalism for the night, err-morning.

Pinned Image

Saturday, August 25, 2012

moooooooooooooo

Even though I had Subway a few hours ago, I'm hungry and ordered a pizza and chicken tenders. I'm lazy and didn't have anything defrosted. Oye. I'm going to regret this on Monday when I officially weigh myself & can kiss my whole 5 pound weight loss good bye :(

a dreary Saturday

I'm not going to lie; I love today's weather. There is a lil fall breeze to it and b/c of the rain, I didn't feel guilty about staying in all day.

So, I haven't had a very productive day. I had 4 eggs with cheese for breakfast and just went and got Subway for lunch. But, in between Papa & I started putting my front garden together. Back and forth with bricks, bricks, and more bricks... about 2 hours later, we are making progress.  There is my cardio for the day :)

I have been thinking about you guys a lot today, in a non creeper type of way. Hope you guys had a great time at Carter's birthday, and the rain didn't mess everything up. If you girls are down for lunch tomorrow or maybe seeing a movie or something, let me know :) It is our last weekend before we get back into our school groove :(


Friday, August 24, 2012

i've been lazy

I've been so lazy about blogging w/ you girls lately!!  Honestly, my food choices have been AWFUL and I've been concentrating on just getting through this week. 

so for breakfast I had mini weats.  Lunch was central park deli (nuggs & fries).  And dinner, glory hole (wings & celery). 

Bad choices -- however, I was so glad me and kara met for lunch for our chat. 

I'll be a better blogger after this weekend, i promise!!

Thank you girls for everything! :)

I think I'm dying

I have felt nauseous all day today. No, I'm not preggo. Even though that doughnut was orgasmic, it doesn't have the powers to impregnate me. And if I were getting the naughties, you bitches would know ;) 

Meeting Kristina for lunch helped though. I hadn't eaten anything all morning, so I ate half my sandwich and ate the other half for like a mid lunch meal, lol. It helped getting out for a lil girl talk b/c if not, I would have been sitting inside all day & completely unmotivated to do anything. So, I did get a few things done while I was out.

For dinner, I had chicken alfredo & pasta and my icecream. I had a lot of water though today; I was so parched!


Hope you guys are having a great Friday! <3

ERMAHGERD MERGERAINE

EPIC FAIL, here goes nothing...Thursday.

Breakfast, coffee from Starbucks (Skinny Vanilla Latte - Grande)
Not so bad. 


For lunch I ran errands with a co-worker, we stopped at Whole foods, I got a salad, and a cup of broccoli and cheese soup, but hey it was organic. 

After work I ran more errands, then started feeling REALLY awful. I couldn't see out of my left eye, shit was all blotchy. 

I called Josh to let him know I was driving home, and to make sure to come look for me if I didn't get there in 10 minutes. 

He beat me home and was waiting for me...my symptoms got worse...
...I felt like I was riding roller coasters all day I was dizzy laying down...and I had the beginnings of a headache...YUP MIGRAINE.

We scoured the house for Excedrine...NONE, so Josh went and got me some....I popped two of those puppies ASAP, and decided I was not cooking dinner. We ordered spicy buffalo chicken pizza from Ginos.  Once it got there I ate two slices, and 3 jalpeno poppers....and was HEALED. 

Here's what I learned....

Organic food = Migraine
Greasy Pizza = Cure for Migraine

Write that down, remember that....

Today - Friday
I've had a cup of coffee and some watermelon.....WOOP! 

I haven't weighed in since Monday - probably ought to, but I feel like my weight fluctuates so much that it should count till my weekly monday weigh in - but I probably ought to check in on myself after all that pizza...

Kara you've inspired me! 

Let's do this shit. 

orgasmic

Well, I did it! I hit the 5 pound mark and weighed myself this morning at 226.4.... now to see if I can keep it from going back up.

I did well throughout the day with my food choices, but last night was the food & beer truck thing in Richmond. I settled for a turkey burger with some garlic french fries. I ate about half of the fries b/c they were really soggy like and so much garlic, but I figured a turkey burger was a nice compromise. I did have 3 beers, granted, they weren't like massively big either. But then... it happened.... the bets thing to ever touch my mouth. I had this freaking freshly made donut from some mennonite's truck. Omg. I couldn't stop talking about it. I went to get another one, but they had sold out... which was a sign saying, "Kara, you splurged and had your 1, so walk away". Seeing how I haven't had sex in a while, it was a nice temporary replacement for the moment! LOL.

So, I invited Candy & Mike out. I think I go through phases- I feel really guilty, so I try to overcompensate and be nice and something will happen and I'll be my typical mean girl self. Kristina, please be jealous you weren't invited to clean tonight. And, heck no, I'm not going. However, Chimi & I will probably walk over on Saturday morning when she is moving to say hey.

I'm going to lounge. Chimi has been a guard dog all night and freaking barking at something, so I haven't slept well.

Happy Friday, woot woot!!! <3

Thursday, August 23, 2012

take me out to the ballgame

Well, I did ok yesterday. My muffin for breakfast & a low calorie microwavable meal with string cheese & a 90 calorie treat for lunch. (I'm trying to avoid those microwavable meals b/c of the sodium, but I didn't feel like putting anything together. I actually fell asleep before lunch b/c I was like, maybe I can just avoid lunch if I sleep through it. LOL, nope! Bad idea b/c I woke up even hungrier.

And then dinner... I stopped at little caesars & got a pizza and breaksticks for Justin and I before the baseball game. I haven't had pizza in a long while, and I went crazy on it. This is why I couldn't do the low carb diet b/c every time I had pasta or bread, I'd go bananas. However, that pizza was so good! I haven't had any fast food (well, except for that pizza) all month, and I'm not really craving like a greasy burger or anything. At the ball game, I had my cotton candy and no beer! I even said no to a 2nd cotton candy when Justin asked; I was somewhat good with that, lol.

Then this morning, I woke up with the worst stomach pains- like, borderline, I want to puke. I know, TMI. But, I think it was from the grease on the pizza. I haven't had anything like that in a month and maybe it just messed with my stomach.

So, for my goal, what about 20 pounds total by December 31, so I can start the new year off right? Doable? Crazy? I've lost 4 pounds in 3 weeks, so I'm hoping I can get 1 more pound this month. I feel like when I hit 10 pounds, I'll be able to start bragging and maybe it'll push me to see even more weight drop off.

Well, time to get ready to leave for practice. Chimi is coming today. Hope he doesn't go too crazy and pee on some bags, haha.

I miss you guys! I know I saw you Monday, but I feel like I haven't seen you in forever! Hope Ro had a safe trip back & Rita, your mom is doing well. <3

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

heyoo

today was an okay day.  I dropped Ro off at the train station (sad to see her go).  My parents had put together a breakfast for us before we went, I ate bacon and watermelon and it was soooo delish!!

For lunch, I had french fries that I baked in my oven - yea i know, not a good choice.

For dinner, i'm eating a hot dog and french fries - yea i know, an even worse choice. 

Only flip side to my awful choices today is that I have not snacked inbetween meals.

As i said earlier, (and i'm going to regret it again) i think i desperately need a schedule!  Next week begins the schedule.  I'll really have to watch my sugar intake next week as well, as i have my glucose test.  If i fail that I have to go for a three hour test -- this one only lasts an hour. 

Hope you two lovelies are doing wonderful!


<--- this will be us!!!

THINK SKINNY, BITCHES!

some random pictures for us













I thought that if I had this awesome outfit, I might want to work out more.... or just lounge around and pretend I was working out 
 

a little guilty

I didn't want to post yesterday b/c I felt so guilty for everything I ate and did. I was so embarrassed and knew I shouldn't be eating like that. Gr. I'm like one of our students; I know I'm doing something wrong, but I'm still doing it anyways.

Well, here goes..... WARNING: none of my choices were good yesterday....

breakfast- Ya, I fucking ate my sandwich. 
lunch: pasta with light alfredo & ground turkey (not too bad of choices)
another lunch: Justin was back & forth about wanting to do something for his birthday. Well, I had already eaten lunch but he wanted to go to City Dogs for his birthday, so I went & ate. 2 hot dogs with chilli and a miller lite.
dinner: I was so not hungry, but I ate some more of my pasta. I wish I hadn't b/c I would eat it for lunch right now.
And I had a 70 calorie ice-cream.

On the bright side, I did take Chimi for a walk, and after my 2nd lunch, we walked around Carytown for a little bit.

I ended up falling asleep around 8:30. I was exhausted and took some sleeping stuff, and I was knocked out. I'm bringing Chimi to field hockey tomorrow b/c we are going to be doing some scrimmages, so I will get to use his new bag!! Pug Life!

<3

Hoping Today Is Better

Where you bitches at? Get your shit together.

I'm hoping today is a better day - I realized when I got home last night, that I hadn't eaten anything all day.  I was so angry that apparently I thought I ate my lunch but I never did. I had two cups of coffee...ALL DAY. I thought I had eaten because I wasn't hungry at all...

...then I went home. 

I needed to channel my rage from the DMV and our stupid circular conversation...

...So I went to check the mail...and I noticed my mail box planter was out of control...I started pulling everything out of the ground...everything. That made me feel better, but then it started to look like it was going to rain. 

...So I went inside...

...and scrubbed the bathrooms, and the oven, and everything else I could find. Until Josh got home and stopped me to ask me what I wanted to eat for dinner. 

At that point - I was like, I dunno, but I'm actually REALLY hungry...he asked me what I had to eat, and I said um....I had lunch....it was....oh wait, I never ate...NO WONDER I'm hungry. 

Sheesh. 

So we made Taco Tuesday, and I didn't hold back, I had cheese dip and chips, and three tacos, I also snacked mindlessly on cheese while cooking and cut watermelon and cantaloupe which I ate half of while cutting. 

Yesterday was a weird day. A very angry, frustrating, stupid day. 

Hope ya'll was better....

PS - This image is for Kara and Candy Cane - Couldn't resist! 


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Putting this on my Fridge


Not only....

...not only did she NOT pass, she also fell and Life Alert called me. 

I'm quitting this day. 

FML

It's Noon.

...and I haven't heard anything yet....this can't be good....

Stressed to the MAX

So mom is taking her test today at 11am - I'm stressed to the MAX...knots in my stomach, pressure in my chest....just all around not good.

...I'm so worried that if she doesn't get this license she'll give up...and we all know how powerful your mental health can be on your physical health....I need her with me a little bit longer...

...kinda got nothing left but the power of prayer...so let's see how strong this stuff really is....


sheesh. 

No food yet....just coffee....

Watts

Need your goal for your timer - I got buck's up there! :)

FML

You know how I know that I'm old? Because drinking soda after 5pm keeps me up all night. Yup, a 1am, I'm flopping around in my bed like a fish out of water b/c I can't sleep. And then I'm up at 6 something? Really? I'm not going to lie- I hope it pours ass rain, so we have to be in the gym and then shorten practice. I'm exhausted.

I had a great time last night! Kristina, I'm so glad you are back in VA & that you brought Ro with you! I'm happy for her & McDreamy- she gets so happy talking about him! And Rita, I felt like I hadn't seen you in ages! That invitation is gorgeous; def. 1000000x better than anything found in a store or already made online. (PS- tennis this week; I told you I'd annoy you everyday with it ) Christian is going to be one spoiled kid!

Now for food. Man, dinner was great last night! I wish I would have just gotten a large salad like you guys b/c the small was even big too! It took everything in me to not eat the other half of my sandwich when I got home last night. However, I kept telling myself that it is going to be amazing for lunch today! I was good and didn't have any of that bread last night and that was a challenge itself.

Chimi was helping me blog this morning. Ok, time for my daily English muffin.

Happy Tuesday! Pray for rain, so we can have a shortened practice & I can come home and sleep!

Monday, August 20, 2012

Home sweet Virginia

Let me start off w/ how happy I am to be back in VA!!!  I'm also so glad I was able to spend Monday evening w/ you lovely ladies :)

Now, for the business...

Weight = 229

Loss = +8 :(

feelings = very uncomfortable, fat, and fustrated w/ clothes!!  But on the flipside, I am so glad to be back in VA!!!

      this picture is the story of my life right now!

Breaking Bad time

Yesterday was just bad. A lot of eating just to eat- b/c I was bored, b/c I was just poopy, b/c it was just there and I knew how delicious it was.

My life is starting to sound like the movie Groundhog Day- woke up, had an English muffin, field hockey practice, came home and had a wrap.

I did have the rest of the broccoli cheese casserole. It was very good & ehh, probably ok for me. I did use the fat free cheese and it had broccoli in it. If I would have had brown rise, I would have used that; it tastes exactly the same as regular, white rice.

I've been really tired lately, and Rita has been too, and I'm sure, Kristina, you are drained- you are doing everything for two now! However, I'm wondering if it is because of maybe the lack of certain vitamins or nutrients b/c we've been cutting out/slimming down certain things. When I was on the low carb diet, I was exhausted, so my stepmom bought me some vitamins (I can't remember if it was just B or maybe B12- is that even one) to help with how tired I was. I might look into it.

And here is the picture of the teachers the other night; I didn't want to post it on facebook b/c of Heidi's delicious beer right in front, so I thought you'd both enjoy it!

love you biatches!

official weigh in day

I liked Rita's set up here, so I stole it to use as well 

227.6

Total weight Loss to Date: 4.2

Pounds to go till first goal: a kabillion

Days till first goal: hmmm, I don't have a set goal. I need to think about this.

Feelings - discouraged & poopy. The positive to this week was that I didn't gain anything, despite my lack of walking and not watching my food choices

Goals for this week: to stop myself from emotional eating & get back on track with my walking- at least 4x this week, with Chimi

The tracker isn't showing up on my feed; it says like connection was reset where I'm sure the tracker is supposed to be. Ok... separate blog now for new stuff.... 

Official Weigh In Day

Up 1.2 pounds from last week.... 

168.0

Total weight Loss to Date: (-2.6)

Pounds to go till first goal (7.4)

Days till first goal: 62

Feelings - not motivated and pissed at myself. 

Goals for this week: Minimum 3 days of exercise.

Oh guys - Peep this - I added a countdown widget to the top of the blog for my first goal - I can add one for you guys too - let me know what your goal dates are!!!!! :) 

Sunday

Today was a lazy, lazy day - apart from the planning at the Buck house...

I woke up about 8am, cause Karma was ready to play...Josh slept till about 10:30...

I had coffee and started cleaning up stuff around the house, and I worked on Kristina's Baby Shower invitation, and got that puppy all ready to go! I'm pretty proud of it...I did it all by myself! 

When Josh woke up we started watching some tv - and hung out a bit...we had lunch, I had a roast beef and cheddar panini...then I ended up falling asleep on the sofa again...slept until Josh woke me up at about 1:30 to get ready to go to the Planning Committee event at the Buck Household. 

Once I got to the Buck's I was surrounded by food...and I did horrible. 

I had one glass of Strawberry wine (from the wine festival we went to) - A piece of bread with roasted red peppers on it...

...a glass of lemonade, chicken salad, house salad with italian dressing, pasta salad, watermelon, cantelope, strawberry shortcake, a brownie bite, and a chocolate chip cookie.....UGH....

it was ALL so good. 

Afterwards, I went home and about 8:30 Josh was hungry for dinner, so we cooked a frozen pizza - I ate half and he ate half :( 

Bad, Bad, Bad - I wasn't even hungry for that pizza but I thought it'd be easier to eat it than put it away - that was not smart...this is why I need to be on a diet, because of those actions....


.....disappointed in myself....





Sunday, August 19, 2012

somber Sunday

Between Candy being a ditz and not realizing today we were getting our pedicures & lunch with Justin, I've just been having an emotional, rollercoaster of a day... and not the fun rollercoaster type. Eh. I'll explain later and vent over some alcohol, lol.

I did see Rita's people today and had some mexican. Oh, lord it was good. I'll pay for it later.

That's it. Now I just ate an icecream even though I'm not really hungry and have a headache brewing. Me and Chimi are going to relax and watch tv.

I don't have a creative title

Yesterday all I wanted to do was eat. I'm having those days a lot lately.

After eating a delicious 250 calorie lunch and sleeping for about two hours, I woke up and was just hungry hungry hungry.  I did make a delicious dinner of chicken parm and a broccoli and cheese casserole. I also had my delicious caramel icecream 70 calorie snack and 100 calorie bag of popcorn. Oh yeah, and a glass of wine.... but only 1!

I did weigh myself today. After going back down to 227, I'm back up to 229... I just don't know what is going on. I feel like I'm doing everything right but still not seeing results. I guess it is also how you guys say that at least we are being healthy. I'm not gorging on chips & dip and 10 at night and drinking 8 beers when I go out. I need to get some more intense cardio in.

I'm going to get a pedicure with my bff bride to be today. Then Justin & I are going school shopping b/c teachers get a 25% discount today and tomorrow. If ya'll need to get your toes done, we will probably be there around 12:30ish and it is the place next to Subway near Commonwealth 20.

Happy Sunday!!! <3

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Saturday - Date Day!

Saturday was date day...Josh decided not to go fishing and to hang out with me...we've done ALOT.....



WE....
.....woke up, Had Coffee....
....went to postnet to mail my phone to Motorola for a new screen....
....went to Lowe's to check on a water filter replacement for the fridge....
....decided it was cheaper at Wal-Mart....
...went to Wal-mart, got water filter, and groceries, and some odds and ends....
....picked up/dropped off dry cleaning....
....came home, emptied car, put away groceries and dry cleaning...
....drove to Amelia to eat lunch at Angelos....I had an italian sub on wheat, no chips, and water....
....came home....
....went for a 2.5 mile walk with Karma....
....came home, made puppy ice cream (thanks pinterest)....
....watched hunger games....ate watermelon....
....gave Karma her puppy ice cream, she loved it....
....watched the Redskins game....we're currently losing....
...thinking about dinner...not sure what....
....may watch the goonies...it's on my 30 before 30 list....


That's all I got!!!!! :) 
Sorry I left ya hanging Kara, I drop off the grid on the weekends! 

Monday Official Weigh In - WOOT! :) 

My Friday...was CRAZY!

So it started off really normal....went to work, was planning on leaving at 11:30...and blah, blah, blah....

...

At 10am I called Coach about my bag....

...they said, well bring it in and we'll take a look, if it's damaged and can be repaired we'll send it off to have it fixed for $20...if it can't be repaired we'll give you a 40% coupon that you can use on TOP of our sale prices and ON TOP of the 30% off that we are running today...

...well shit...that's like paying me to take it.

So at 11:30 I said good-bye to work and was heading to the Williamsburg Outlets, cause I'm on crack!

Turns out my coworker Aylin had a similar issue with her bag and she wanted to ride along too...so we made a road trip out of it....

...ends up they could try to fix it but if they couldn't they'd keep my purse and send me a 40% off coupon...or send my purse back and no coupon...I was not satisfied...

...so the manager said she'd let me keep my purse AND give me the 40% off coupon....I said DEAL! Cause I can live with the damage....if I get a new bag! 

So I got two new bags....and a scarf to tie on my bags! HA! Awesome! 

Then we drove back to Richmond to get Aylin home in time to meet her friend for their workout they had planned...phew...


........

Then I drove BACK out to Charles City to see my friends baby that was born last week...it was a long drive but she was worth it - she was so beautiful and so precious! 

Before I left for the outlets, I had a yogurt, and some grapes.....
After I left work I was too busy and focused to eat....until I got a headache at like 6:30....
Since Kristina was out of town, Josh and I met Adam at Mexico for a quick dinner...I ate EVERYTHING...haha, chips/salsa/cheese dip.....rice and chicken dinner....and water...

Not too bad considering I didn't eat much the rest of the day....but by the time I got to Mexico it was game over. I was HUNGRY........and it was mexican food!


Oh and here's the kicker...before I got into Mexico I went to put my phone in my pocket....and dropped it in the parking lot...long story short - screen is shattered. :( 

FAIL.

Lazy day

Get your shit together, Rita! You gotta be keeping me alive over here, since Kristina is partying up in NY! :)

I ate a muffin, finally mowed the yard, gave Chimi a bath, and now I'm going to shower and then nap. That is my day in a nutshell. How boring yet extremely fun and all I want to do! holla.


Friday, August 17, 2012

busy busy bee

Ohmylanta, that was some 4 1/2 mile walk. I'm dying after it. When I left a little bit later, he got right into his cage and didn't bark at all- just plopped down, lol.

Justin wanted to go grab dinner, and I was so glad because after that walk, I had no desire to work my way around a kitchen. We went to O'Charlies and got the Kristina special- chicken fingers. I had a caesar salad and broccoli & cheese casserole with it. I brought most of the chicken fingers home, but I just finished eating them. I figured I had walked off everything I ate (I ate no more than 400 calories before the walk & dinner), so I was able to splurge a little. I did make sure to drink lots of water (and my 1 diet pepsi) since I had been so active today.

I'm ready to pass out! Looks like I'll have another roommate free weekend, holler!

<3 

TGIF

I was going to mow my yard today but then I got hungry.... lol. Like where I was going there? Did you get it? Like the "and then I got high" song. But for real, I still haven't mowed!

I forgot to tell you guys about my bargain! Ground turkey was on sale for a little less than $3 yesterday at walmart (it was a different brand than last time). I bought 4 and threw them in the freezer. I debated about buying more, but I figured I shouldn't go too crazy. Oh, I was pumped!

So, we had a great time at field hockey today. Because we had the JV jamboree on Weds. & varsity on Thursday, today was just a fun day & Jaeckle had a whole punch of activities planned for them and got them freezepop things.

Before practice I had my normal, delicious English muffin. Then I just ate my lunch. Ok, my new thing is tomato basil wraps (instead of bread for sandwiches).  I was just doing regular low carb ones b/c they are 80 calories, but the tomato basil ones are 68 and it gives my lunch a lot more flavor. I use laughing cow cheese on it (so I figure it is kind of like a cheese & a dressing type thing), 2 pieces of ham (20 calories each) and some lettuce. Plus, I added my cookies where 1 bag is 100 calories. So, my lunch was about 250 calories & I am full!!

Chimi & I are going on a walk with my friend Erin & her dog, Jackson. She said it is about a 4 1/2 mile walk, so that will be some great cardio for me.

On Thursday there is this food and brewery thing kind of like the beer & bbq fest I went to. I sent you both (and Ro) an invite. I didn't know how long Ro would be in town, but I thought it might be something fun! I'm going with Erin, so if you guys want to come, let me know!

Happy traveling, Kristina! Can't wait to hear about the bachelorette party. And happy shopping, Rita! Hope you got a new purse or got yours fixed!

<3

Phew Boy!

Yesterday was a decent day for me I think. 

I had my coffee and english muffin with my laughing cow cream cheese for breakfast. 

Then for lunch I had a weight watchers cheeseburger, some grapes, and some cherries for a snack.  Then before leaving work I had a chobani yogurt...so all in all pretty good...

...I got home late because I had an eyebrow threading appointment and then I ran a few errands. Josh had a party at his office after work so he'd already eaten dinner. I took this opportunity to eat something that Josh doesn't like to eat often and I made myself spaghetti....

After that I was still bit hungry so I snacked on some grapes, while watching the big bang theory! 

That was my night, and now it's FRIDAY! :) 

WOOOOO HOOOO

Kristina - have a great trip! 

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Lazy

I've been pretty lazy with the blogging!! My badness!

Let's see, where to begin? My choices have been okay. I've tried to make smart choices but don't feel like I've tried hard enough. I feel like I've fallen off the wagon a little since I haven't blogged-- kinda don't like that feeling! This tells me that the blogging must be doing it's job.

My feet and ankles have been swelling lately, so this is a pretty good indication that I've taken in too much sodium-- I should probably watch that. Also, I can't wear my wedding band anymore so that is sucky.

Yup, leaving for NY tomorrow-- I'm happy to see Ro but not thrilled to be going up. I'll be glad when I'm back on VA soil on Sunday. Wish me luck with the food decisions. I will try to blog when I can, but I'm not planning on taking my iPad with me.

Aiight ladies, I'm signing out for the evening.

true story


I like good food and I can not lie

 Not too exciting of a day.
Bacon & eggs for breakfast.

Then I had training from 1-4, so I didn't get to eat lunch. But after training, we stopped by Firehouse... ya, um. I ate a large club, but I got it on wheat and baked lays (even though I really wanted that 300 calorie bag of cheetos) with a diet orange soda. I try to do the slight changes where I can. I will probably end the day with my 70 calorie icecream bars.

I remembered that Kristina was going to NY a little after I posted that. I'm going to try and get my oil changed after field hockey tomorrow, but Rita, I will hit you up once I get home and cleaned up. I'm dying to see the Campaign!

It's going to be an early night for me. I'm so glad the weekend is coming up; I just want to curl up in bed and sleep.

Happy Thursday, lovelies!

It's Little Friday!

Man, am I glad little Friday is here. This week has been LOOOONG. I've been writing test cases at work and let me tell you, nothing could possibly bring me more joy.  SIKE. 

It's mundane, and it takes forever, and I'm the only one here that knows how to do this shit so it's killing me. 

Food today, we'll I've had a coffee, I'm about to go toast my english muffin and lather on some laughing cow cream cheese.....

I'll holler back when I eat again...

Happy Little Friday ladies, we are doing great with this blog...I'm so proud of us...they say do something for 2 weeks and it becomes a habit...look at us on week 3 getting ready to be on week 4....We are awesome...

...now if I could just get my fat ass off the sofa for two weeks straight we'd be in great shape! 

Love you! 

R